Luna's Tenebris Part 4

I'm so sorry that it took me months to finish one chapter of Luna's Tenebris.
I had a common problem for writers which is called writer's block.
I tried my best to make this new chapter so I hope you guys like it !

Depth

You can never know what someone has in mind, what they’re thinking. 

You might see them smiling but little do you know about the storm inside them.

We are all different. Some are like the inland sea; open, little to hide and shallow.

While others may be mysterious like the depth of the ocean; not knowing whatever

lurks within and is not as calm as the waters in the inland sea. 

I would, if I may, refer myself to be like the deep blue sea. As the sea is vast, 

I have yet to truly understand myself. Yet, day by day I start to learn little by

little about myself.

The problem about me being in a relationship is that I tend to take things too 

serious and I would always end up in confusion. I am not the type to think that 

everyone would be attracted to me. I might be too blinded by unsureness that 

I don’t really see what’s there in front of me. I am a coward because over the 

past relationships I’ve been in, I didn’t try to stop the other half from leaving.

 I am not heartless, I do have a heart. It’s just that I don’t know what to do when

it reaches that point…

People change, I’ve changed. I’ve learned from my mistakes and choose to 

mend myself and better myself. Sometimes I wish I would just meet someone 

who would truly understand me, better than myself...

Love?

"Love is something unfathomable, it is an illusion of reality,

some would say its magic pero totoo yan."

I am still young and a long journey still awaits. I might be young but if
I could say that my mind is older than my physical age then it is. We were
 born to this world in pairs and that path of finding each other isn’t easy as walking 
down to the market to find what you’re looking for. Like how life is, we learn by 
mistakes and by mistakes we better ourselves. Maybe this is a way  

I might be imperfect but note that everyone has their own flaws. It takes the
right person to see those flaws as something beautiful. I've learned so much
from my previous. I now know better and will treat the next better. I'm hoping
to find someone that can truly understand who I am and that will accept me for
who I am. I know how it hurts to be cheated on, ignored, given false hopes
and I will try my best to not do anything to harm the heart of someone I love.
This is to my future, my one and only, I have yet to know who you are but I am
sure that fate will find its way. I hate seeing tears fall down from a woman's cheek.
Regardless of who they are, it makes my heart feel like its been stabbed by a
sharp needle repeatedly. For that reason, I will do my best to put a smile on your face.

A message to my future :

I am sorry for doing anything wrong without me realizing and if I hurt you in
anyway. I can be so blinded at times and I can be stupid at times. But for sure I
would do everything I can to sweep you off your feet and be there for you when
you feel low. I don't fall in love easily and when I do, you will certainly be the
only one. I might not know who you are right now, but note that this heart is yearning
for your presence. I might be young at the time I'm writing this, but remember that
this came from the bottom of my heart and I hope to meet you in the near future.

Para my other half,
although hindi ko alam nasaan ka sa mundo,
gusto kong sabihin para sayo, mahal na mahal kita :)