Wednesday, 16 March 2016

Memories

Hi guys,

I hope you guys are well. Now what I'm gonna write in this post is what pains me the most.You know those moments where a scent can make you remember a part of your memory? Regardless if its good or bad? Its not necessarily a scent but for me today, its a song. It reminded me of grief, heartbreak and sorrow. 

What happened was I was working earlier today and was about to finish my shift where a song came up... "I can't make you love me"

I remember hearing this song a few months ago when I was in a really complicated situation. Indeed, when the memories came back, the pain tagged along. Suddenly, after a few months of not feeling depressed about this... it sort of rose back from the dead. Its just a temporary feeling but still I bet you guys can definitely relate to this. 

That's it this time... 
Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, 1 March 2016

Cruelty

What do you deem as an act that's so cruel that you can actually feel your heart in pain?

Its so hard fighting your inner demons while your outer-self is fighting another battle.
Time was told to heal but no matter how long; the scars of the healed wound would remain untouched. Just as how you hurt someone, consequences will occur.

A list of what I have thought about that deserves a place in it:

1. Taking someone's time and effort just to leave them empty handed.
2. Holding onto someone with a leash just so you can feel better while knowing that someone does not deserve it.
3. Gain someone's trust just to leave it broken just like a million shards of broken glass.
4. Helping someone to get on their knees just to see them fall over again.
5. Leaving a gap in someone's life.
6. Having fun while not caring if ever the other person is suffering.
7. Make it hard for someone to learn how to trust again.

Now what I've just listed is not in any physical sense, but a more emotional and mental sense. I bet many can relate to these things listed above. Nobody deserves any of the mentioned stuff on that list. Of course it is hard for us to even imagine if we were ever to do these stuff to someone. Oh the irony...

The fact that we, ourselves are doing/had done the above mentioned cruelty is without a doubt at when we least realise it. Perhaps someone could be in denial or such, but this is agreeable to most people as for sure we have broken someone's heart before. Just to let you know how the person would feel; empty, broken, accompanied by not only grief but also the black dog which will follow him/her whenever they are alone and at their weakest.

We, under any circumstances, should avoid causing much more pain into each others' lives. Be the kind of person you'd like yourself to be. Hopefully this would shed some light to the issue of betrayal and heartbreaks.