Time

Stuck. Unable to breathe. Have you ever feel like you’re insignificant in this world?

Perhaps everything is perfect but you’re unable to see the bliss that other people would be dying to be in. Maybe you’re just unhappy of yourself. What is to be unhappy about? You’ve got great company, you’re still able to put food on your table and the most important thing is you’re still breathing.

Breathe in. Take control of your thoughts. Sometimes you don’t mean it but you just feel like you’re suffocating. What can you do? There’s nothing you can’t do really. You’ve been meaning to go for a walk near the beach, or be lost in the wilderness. There’s a world out there you’re dying to explore but what is but the time that you’re lacking.

Breathe out. Gradually you feel as if the pressure in your head slowly seeps away. Making you feel more relaxed. I don’t really know what I’m doing here. You’ve been thinking about your purpose in life. What is this grand plan that is in store for you? You have no idea, guess what? Nobody really knows. You can’t possibly expect everything to be perfect in your life. You shouldn’t put expectations in other people because if you do so, you’re gonna be disappointed for sure. Just try to accept things as they are. If you’re unhappy then leave. If you don’t want anything to change then just stay.

A million thoughts come rushing into your head once more seeing how pointless it is to go through the same thing over and over again. When will it end? It ends when you care less. Be yourself, do what you want in life and don’t hold back for anyone.

Sometimes you yearn for the past things that would make you hurt just because you know now that you’re able to survive from that. Reliving old memories and listening to old songs that would conjure up the pain from the past. Is that really what you want? I guess it’s just the fact that back then things weren’t as complicated as they are now.

You want people to understand you but sometimes people are just too thick in their heads to know what exactly is going on with you in your life. They say things will be alright, you just have to stop thinking or feeling that way and you’ll be fine. Is it really that simple? Some people are just ignorant.

I wish all of you to find your way through that rough patch in life. I’m gonna stay strong and just enjoy my company while it lasts.