Silver Linings Playbook

"Every cloud has a silver lining"

To those who are wondering what does silver lining means, its a saying that says every bad situation will have an element of good. In other words, the bad things that's happening will always have a good cause. I just finished watching this movie and it was great. It makes you think that in all of that chaos you're having, there will always be hope to find peace and happiness.

Personally, I really like Jennifer Lawrence. She has this distinct characteristics that makes her different from other people. She's truthful to herself and she's just being who she is. I started liking her from the movie, "The Hunger Games". She played the role well. I don't know if this differs from who she is in real life but she seems to be a very strong and impulsive woman.

Back to the story, this idiom, silver lining, makes me think about everything I'm struggling to cope with now, will bring good effects towards my life. Perhaps its teaching me on how to be positive and to never give up. Or might as well, get your life straighten up before doing anything else. Hey, I'm just saying. 

God has everything planned and of course, life has its ups and downs. You can never stay the same cause if you do, life will be boring. The bad things that happen will make you cherish the good moments you have. And to cherish the good moments, you need to start living for every single moment that's happening no matter huge or small. You shouldn't become like one of the zombies in "The Walking Dead", they are so lifeless and dull. 

This movie also reminded me of this one saying, count your blessings. Perhaps by counting your blessings, you'll feel more positive of the things you have in your life. Each person in this world are born different. Some have unique skills and some might even be... unique. You should never change yourself for people to accept you cause trust me, they won't. Stop trying to become something you're not and instead, be yourself. There's nothing better than being yourself. Hey, you are who you are and people should shut their mouth for judging you. 

I guess this is it for this entry,

thanks for reading.

Hollow

Its been a really hectic month for me. September must've been the worst month for me this year. I'm trying to cope with everything around me. I lose my temper sometimes and I feel down without a reason. Well maybe there are several reasons that made me down. Forget about that. Let's continue on with the story.

I've been going up and down hills of emotions. One day I'm happy and the next I'm not. Its so stressful nowadays. I wish I have a skip button for September and just fast forward myself to October. I don't know why but I lost my appetite lately and my body keeps on shaking whenever I'm stressed. This is so not healthy. I haven't got the chance to go out and just chill out.. Due to this stupid examination. I thought I've grabbed hold of my negativity and threw them out the window but boy how I was wrong. At least its not as worse as it was 2 weeks ago. I need help but I don't know where should I turn to. Everyone is busy with their own lives and I'm here standing all alone under the rain. Holding myself together for a slight sense of warmth. Its cold and I'm alone. Maybe I'm over thinking things or maybe I'm not. I noticed that I've grown further away from people who I'm close with. Or might as well call it people who I'm USED to be close with.

About yesterday...

I was so upset at someone for not replying any of my text messages and made me feel like a dumbass waiting for a reply. I could have just let go of it if it was a one time thing but this one no. I was extremely furious and I kind of scolded him for it. Maybe its his way of texting but seriously, is it hard to even reply a simple OK for several text messages ? After what happened last night, my body went haywire cause I can't control my hands, in particular, from shaking. Maybe its a sign from my body that it can't handle anymore stress. After several hours.. I rethink of what I did and what I did was inappropriate. It made me regret that I might've hurt my best friend for such stupid thing. I could always forgive and forget but maybe this time it's because everyone who I used to open up to are no longer here for me and that I needed at least one friend to open up with and as I texted that person, that person didn't give any response whatsoever. I feel bad at the same time I feel stupid. I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I hope everything is still OK between us. 

HOW STUPID CAN I BE WHEN I'M ANGRY.

Top !

 

Introducing my chinese teacher, Miss Sun from China.

Today was actually our final day for our first semester.

I was pretty much unprepared for my finals but I put in everything I got.

While we were eating earlier today, Miss Sun announced the

highest scorer of our final exam. I wasn't expecting much and

it turned out to be me ! I nearly choked eating my chicken drumstick 

as she announced it ! I received a gift from China as promised and

it's filled with ancient styled souvenirs from Xi An China.

Here is the photo of the box. As written, Zhong Guo Xi An.

Today was the best day of the whole semester. I can't wait for the next one to start.

=) I really appreciate the gift