Love

"Learn to love yourself before loving others."

I now know what this phrase truly means. You gain knowledge by experiencing things in life,
I can say that I've been through a lot. This phrase actually says that how can you love someone when you don't love yourself ? Putting others in front of you while you suffer and rot. Being in love means being equal, even if you love that person so much, you have to know when to let go because loving yourself means that you have to stand up for yourself. The outcome for not loving yourself would either be you hurting yourself or him/she hurting you. You know that when you love yourself you won't let anything bad happen to you. So my advice here is before you love anyone else, learn to love yourself first.

This is just things from my own point of view, this is not from something that a professional counselor or anyone that's in a professional field. Just me, a 17 year old high school student who has been observing pretty much everything.

I guess why I'm not in any relationship is that I have yet to learn to love myself. As someone who has depression and anxiety, its really hard to maintain a good relationship because you tend to distance yourself from people who really cares. Everyone deserves to be loved and perhaps not everyone meet the right person. This is just a thought, well most of my blog posts are my own personal thoughts.


Never lie, never cheat, never play around with people's feelings.

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Obstacles

Obstacles are meant to be either jumped over or destroyed. Whichever the person's choice is in order to continue on. The problem here isn't whether you can do it, its believing yourself and that of your own control of fear. But once you've jumped over that hurdle, everything will seem like nothing. Nothing will be able to stop you from getting what you want.

I have a fear of loneliness. The thought of me being in a foreign country with no relatives nearby and friends scares me a lot. I was questioning myself, of my own capabilities, whether or not I could jump over this obstacle or will I fall into a deep abyss. After the session I had earlier at ASA, it opened my eyes to see that I will have to go through that phase sooner or later. I've made my choice and I will dare to challenge myself, to improve myself. Perhaps things will turn out okay, who knows. But all that I know now is to prepare everything, documents and such and just go with the flow.

You could either choose to stay in the state of loneliness, or explore what lies outside of the cave. I choose to venture onto the unknowns and seek adventures that might lead me to the better side of the island. You may not know your limits until you try and challenge yourself. I guess I'm pretty motivated for today because all of those useless thoughts I had made me feel unprepared for adulthood. Well, it stops today and I'll try to change how my mind thinks bit by bit.

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