Missing

                                       People change,

                                       Hearts change,

                                       Minds change.

Nothing in this world will stay the same; something that's alive that is...

Weird how sometimes you don't realise how much you've changed yourself.

Sometimes you become more loving, more excited, more....

Well... just more unlike yourself...

Have you ever felt like theres a hole inside your heart?

Something's missing but you just don't know what?

Always blaming on yourself for the mistakes you've made in the past?

You will always be haunted by it... but you just have to live with it.

Take it as a lesson for what you shouldn't do next time you're in a 

similar situation. 

Why is it so hard to open your heart for another?

You know that you should try trusting someone once more,

try letting them know how you really feel inside...

Having a deep conversation with someone you know who will

be able to relate to you, or might even just be there to listen to what

you're going through...

Just someone who'll learn more about you, perhaps even more than what you

might know about yourself. 

We are all a mystery, like the deep blue sea,

like an iceberg where you can only see the small peak when

there's actually a bigger, deeper side of you.

You can have a conversation all night,

telling that someone about your hopes and dreams.

What you find weird, what that person might find weird.

Knowing that you're not really alone in the world.

An old soul in a youthful body.

Not many can fathom.

Love?

"Love is something unfathomable, it is an illusion of reality,

some would say its magic pero totoo yan."

I am still young and a long journey still awaits. I might be young but if
I could say that my mind is older than my physical age then it is. We were
 born to this world in pairs and that path of finding each other isn’t easy as walking 
down to the market to find what you’re looking for. Like how life is, we learn by 
mistakes and by mistakes we better ourselves. Maybe this is a way  

I might be imperfect but note that everyone has their own flaws. It takes the
right person to see those flaws as something beautiful. I've learned so much
from my previous. I now know better and will treat the next better. I'm hoping
to find someone that can truly understand who I am and that will accept me for
who I am. I know how it hurts to be cheated on, ignored, given false hopes
and I will try my best to not do anything to harm the heart of someone I love.
This is to my future, my one and only, I have yet to know who you are but I am
sure that fate will find its way. I hate seeing tears fall down from a woman's cheek.
Regardless of who they are, it makes my heart feel like its been stabbed by a
sharp needle repeatedly. For that reason, I will do my best to put a smile on your face.

A message to my future :

I am sorry for doing anything wrong without me realizing and if I hurt you in
anyway. I can be so blinded at times and I can be stupid at times. But for sure I
would do everything I can to sweep you off your feet and be there for you when
you feel low. I don't fall in love easily and when I do, you will certainly be the
only one. I might not know who you are right now, but note that this heart is yearning
for your presence. I might be young at the time I'm writing this, but remember that
this came from the bottom of my heart and I hope to meet you in the near future.

Para my other half,
although hindi ko alam nasaan ka sa mundo,
gusto kong sabihin para sayo, mahal na mahal kita :)