Obstacles

Obstacles are meant to be either jumped over or destroyed. Whichever the person's choice is in order to continue on. The problem here isn't whether you can do it, its believing yourself and that of your own control of fear. But once you've jumped over that hurdle, everything will seem like nothing. Nothing will be able to stop you from getting what you want.

I have a fear of loneliness. The thought of me being in a foreign country with no relatives nearby and friends scares me a lot. I was questioning myself, of my own capabilities, whether or not I could jump over this obstacle or will I fall into a deep abyss. After the session I had earlier at ASA, it opened my eyes to see that I will have to go through that phase sooner or later. I've made my choice and I will dare to challenge myself, to improve myself. Perhaps things will turn out okay, who knows. But all that I know now is to prepare everything, documents and such and just go with the flow.

You could either choose to stay in the state of loneliness, or explore what lies outside of the cave. I choose to venture onto the unknowns and seek adventures that might lead me to the better side of the island. You may not know your limits until you try and challenge yourself. I guess I'm pretty motivated for today because all of those useless thoughts I had made me feel unprepared for adulthood. Well, it stops today and I'll try to change how my mind thinks bit by bit.

Thanks for reading.

Choices

Choices, some choices we have will change our future forever.
I have to make a choice in less than 4 months. A choice that will affect my future.
I really don't know which to choose.
I'm clueless.

Demons

Over thinking makes up problems that's unreal.
The real demon is yourself.

The Road

One decision leads to another.

I went out with my friends today and I came across this one quotation.

I can't really recall the exact words that were used but it meant to say that

you won't really know how precious one moment is until it has become a plain memory.

Perhaps why I love to take photographs is that I love to cherish the moments and

I would like to remember these moments in later years. I may or may have not mentioned about this 

but this is me. I just love it. 

I will come across a junction in this road of life in less than half a year.

I will be leaving my friends and family in order to proceed to the next

chapter in life but for sure I won't forget those who means the most to me.

My friends are my everything. I just love them like family. They bring happiness to

this dull life of mine. Perhaps they are the reason why I'm still moving strong. Maybe...

I just can't stand the thought that we will split ways in less than a year...

I hope they will be near me when they pursue their dream. 

Perhaps I haven't mentioned about the dearest people in my life,

my trio, the sloths. Preston, Elcy and Melissa.

They are my happy pills. =)

I don't know what I would do without them.

I might just let my tears run down my face when graduation.

I'll miss them by loads. 

Perhaps the title for this post has nothing to do with the content,

but for sure you guys know that I normally talk about bull so that's fine for me.

I love you guys forever,

You guys have a special space in my heart.

Thank you for the past years we've been together,

May God bless our friendship for eternity.

Trust

Trust, perhaps there's more than its meaning as a word.
Perhaps its the cure we've been searching for.
We have to trust one another in order to let go of the
burden that's set in your mind and soul.

I learned to trust. I feel better.
I trust that my friends won't let themselves fade away.
They know that I need them.
They know that I can't live without them.
I trust them.

Its been a great relief to know that
one single thing could change dozens.
I feel as if a great burden has been lifted upon my shoulders.

Learn to trust, everything will fall to pieces.

Thanks for reading :)

Broken

How do you mend a broken soul ?
As you know darkness lurks within this wall of haze.
What would you do if you know there is no cure?
All your hope shatters as you know its impossible for someone to mend you.
All you want to do is to escape this labyrinth, but when all prevails,
all that you want to do is to cry.
 
Crying helps... at least for awhile.


As quoted in tfios,
"The world isn't a wish-granting factory."

I agree. You have to fight for the things that you want.
But what if what you want is something you can't fight for?
Perhaps because its something non-physical ?

All I want now is peace in my heart and soul.
My old self is gradually fading away.
Being broken means you are living your life differently than before.
To live on with a few shattered pieces missing.
Its just not the same.

I know I need someone but I don't know who that someone is.

Until next time,
thanks for reading.

Random

Enjoy whatever and regret nothing.

I've learned something valuable these past few years.

Its something that you won't regret doing.

That something is trying new things.

It won't hurt you and the experience gained are precious !

I used to be afraid of trying new things and now that I think of it,

I regret for not trying and I've wasted loads of opportunities that could

possibly bring bliss to me.

A shout out to everyone out there,

just try new things that would bring good to you !

You will start to enjoy life more and it helps to bring the best of you.

Thanks for reading :)