Stuck

Picture this...

You're in the middle of a busy street, standing frozen, unable to move.

Everyone is moving forward in every direction.

You thought to yourself that "that was me". 

And it's true that you have been moving along, sometimes even through places so crowded that you could barely walk through. But you made it work...

For some reason you're just frozen. Unable to breathe or call out for help.

You're simply stuck... held by invisible anchors that you can't seem to unlodge yourself from.

Hi readers,

A lot has happened since I posted prior to this year. I've graduated, I've finally made it. I have completed the highest level of education there is but for whatever reason I struggle to be certain about what should come next.

What's ahead of me is vast but I'm confused by which direction to take. Its almost like I've lost my sense of direction. As much as I thought I have rediscovered myself, it doesn't feel like that's the case anymore.

I wanted to pursue clinical psychology, then medicine, then academia, then content creation. So many options where my younger self would have just pushed through any given direction. I sometimes wonder what happened to that part of myself - driven, ambitious, and wouldn't take no for an answer. Have I really been beaten up in life that much to doubt every step forward? It does feel like the case sometimes.

I know what I have to do to reset myself but even taking that step is hard.