Tick Tock The Clock Stops

Hello guys,

I hope you've been well. I've been sick for the couple of days and its my examination week.
Its just a few days before my flight back to KK. I can't wait to be back but I'm also reluctant to leave Melbourne even if its just for a month.

I've noticed some behavioural changes. Its not others but its me. I'm not sure if I'm overthinking or its those "psychology student self diagnosis" thing but yeah. Ever since I've started studying psychology, I can say that I'm more aware of my own wellbeing as well as others. Well it didn't really took me an instant to figure out if I'm currently depressed. It still took time for me to figure out what's wrong with myself or if I'm actually fine.

I noticed that I've been really impatient lately and my sleeping schedule changed as well as my appetite decreased. Maybe its the exam taking its toll on me but there are other personal stuff that happened just recently. I really wish I can help other people cope with depression and anxiety but at this stage all I can do is to be supportive to them. It takes patience but for sure, I know how it felt to be alone and not having anyone there to support me so at least I know I'm making their burden a bit less.

I'm actually not clinically diagnosed with depression, I just have that 'common cold' type of depression that comes and goes all the time and never really there to stay for a month. Well it did for a phase but I got over it years back. Now I can say that I'm currently only facing major depression (not diagnosed of course).

I know how people with depression think that nobody really understand what they're going through but the fact is that it is a common mental condition that people have. I actually overcame the hard phase by myself without really seeing a psychiatrist or a GP. Its just a gut feeling that if I avoid coffee, I don't get depressed and my body won't shake (I have a really sensitive anxiety trigger issue), in a way its also taste aversion. I also have the urge to go for a run when I feel the depression is kicking in and it did help. What I also drink when I feel my anxiety or depression kicking in is that I drink chocolate milk or any form of chocolate based drinks that I can get my hands on. People might think that "Nah these tips won't work", but trust me they do help.

Guys, if you have depression, you should try to talk about it with someone you trust. Keeping it in won't help you in anyway. That was the first mistake I did. Not trusting anyone about it. I wish you guys the best to stay mentally healthy as well as having the best time in your life.


Sincerely,
Mizan Ahmad.