Isn't it weird that you somehow feel better after breaking down ?
I feel light chested, stress-free, and somehow better.
I don't want to be the kind of person who keeps on posting negative things on blogger but I can't help it. Blogger is the only place I can write everything down. People might judge me but they don't know who I am and the story behind my smile.
I find comfort from friends. I am happy when I see them happy. At least I can have a little taste of warmth, of being welcomed, and cherished whenever I'm with them. I don't normally open up to people because most of society will only judge me directly. But then, people who know the story behind the smile that I put on everyday will understand me well.
I feel like I'm nothing most of the time, I feel like I'm just like hydrogen in the air. I do not have any function. That changes when I'm with my friends. They make me feel like I'm special, a part of something that they don't want to lose, and most importantly, I can finally feel happy whenever I'm around them. I'm gravely touched from my best friends' birthday wish, they use the term "You're my best friend, I'm thankful to have you in my life." I finally feel like I'm needed, not just a decoration of some sort. I actually mean something to people.
I am in debt to two people, two people that understand my tale well enough to accept me and to always be there for me. The one that chose to cherish me. Listen to everything I say and gain something from it. I can't go to them this time because I don't want to be any burden to them because I know that they're having a rough time too. At least all I can do is offer a helping hand like what they did to me when I needed it. I love you guys so much.
You, you listened to my tale and even though you didn't have anything to say. I know you deeply understood what I was trying to say. You didn't judge me and instead you chose to sacrifice your own needs or ego. We're both in a mess now. I'm here to say that I can always lend you a helping hand whenever you need it. You've been there for me almost every time I needed someone to talk to, this is the least I can do to you. I know I'm a nuisance but I'm glad that you spared your time to listen to my problems. You don't know how much you've helped me along this journey of mine. I'm greatly in debt to you. I can rip off my wings just to let you fly. It saddens me to see you with a broken smile. You've helped to repair mine and I guess I should do the same to you. I'll cherish the moments that I've spent with you and our friends better starting now.
You, you are a different version of me but still, we can relate to each other. Even if the problems we're both facing are different, we can still understand well each other. When I first met you, I never thought that I would be this close to you. We're a Team. Like the fictional characters that we use to somehow relate to, in real life we are still a team. We all have strength deep within but you know you can't possibly stay strong forever. Sometimes you have to break down and regain your strength. You thought that you're alone, well I'm alone too. I'm the Haruno nonetheless. With all that strength you have inside you, you hope to pull everything back to the way it was. To its original state, our friendship I mean. I mean all three of us. You're a blessing in my life, heck you both are. I hope that our friendship will last for years to come.
Thanks for reading this awfully long post. Well it's been a very emotional day for me.
May God Bless You All for reading this post of mine.
